brighter day

Grand grandma after u have gone, my day was been cheer by grandpa, really glad that he could walk like he used to be after been suffer from stroke last time. Today really feel happy for Lord who heard my prayer for grandpa, i thought everything will just be the same for grandpa that he could not walk and recover. but today really shock by grandpa, he walk in front of me, i'm really excited today. slowly the pain in my heart about you, grandma is fade away, but not the same for my family, i hope they could really let you go...somehow also hoping for Lord will be the healer of their heart and the TRUTH in my family..

i know you 're always there for me

Along the way going to church, i'm trying to pretended i'm okie. i wish i could go through everything with happily that day, but i didn't do it. i feel kinda guilty and regret for what i had done cuz my emotion effect people around me.

Trying so hard to find comfort from U after everything happen so suddenly, until i realize is me who seldom spend a moment to took a sit and talk to you. Crying so hard knowing that i completely forget how much u willing to listen to what i want to say.

Until i woke up this morning, my eyes sight direct to a book called "drawing near" just right beside my pillow. And i just stare at the book for a few second, and i know is me who didn't willing to spend some time to draw near to u and listen to your voice. I still remember every time i go to church every Friday, i really wanna talk to you personally cuz i couldn't find a suitable place to talk to u in my own room. really depress that moment that make me feel many time wanna run out from the church and go up stair to talk to u, how much i need u that moment but i didn't do it. I really miss the time i could talk to u. As i stared and i started to open and read the books. i found comfort in U when i found this. My heart has heard you say, "come and talk with me" And my respond, " Lord, i'm coming" (Ps. 27:8 NLT)

Hurt ..

Nothing hurt more than knowing that you are really gone and i couldn't see you for the last time. Rest in Peace Grandma, I love U. (':

Love U so Much (-;

There is no greater love than yours,

nothing else could ever compare,

and even if i search all the world i would never find a love like yours..

deeply i really want to shout out loud saying I really love u :)

unfailing love

"where there is hatred, let me sow love."